Forgive yourself darling, we all have acted out of fear and love. We all have chapters we wish we could tear out of our lives. You do not have to feel ashamed at not being perfect, at having made a mistake. Because you didn’t know what to do,you didn’t know how to cope. There’s no need to tighten your jaw or clench your fists every time the world reminds you of what you’ve done. Of your temporary desperation to be loved and needed and desired. There is nothing anyone can say to make you feel better about the choices you’ve made. Only you can decide the role these experiences should play in your life. Its okay,you didn’t know,you had to learn somehow. Is it really worth it? To torture yourself over lost pride. Should we punish ourselves for the fact that we continued to show love and kindness. Was this a sign of weakness? Should we beat ourselves up knowing that when the other reclaimed their love,we took ours back too? You don’t have to be superhuman at all my love, you didn’t know everything, but its okay. Nobody could have taught you what you have learned and in that way it was the most valuable lesson of all. Some people would not have made the same mistake you did,some people would have known better,but you didn’t and its alright. You can stop punishing yourself now. Never again will you grant someone that kind of power over you. Never will you give anyone the permission to break you. When people choose to leave your life you will know that you are still you,no less. You will know that your beauty and your magnificence and your silliness is worth much more. Should you feel angry that your tears and pain have caused improvements you deserved? You should feel proud. Proud to have selflessly poured your love and energy into the world. With you and your love make the world a better place. Forgive yourself my darling.
And when its 3am and you find yourself in a world of complete despair,please,do not turn to strangers on the internet for solace as i did,instead climb into my bed and I’ll hold you until the demons lay. If it’s Thursday morning and you are to sad to move i won’t force you,I’ll buy you ice cream, and we’ll watch your favorite tv shows,and I’ll remind you of your importance, if you feel you have no purpose i will remind you that you were created entirely with love and every pain you feel, i feel too. When your sure you can’t go on anymore i will tell you that when i was 16 i searched for peace at the bottom of a vodka bottle chased by a bottle of pain killer’s. But a couple of years later,when you were placed in my arms in the delivery room i realized that you were why i had been holding in. Without realizing it, you saved me,do you know how amazing that is? So if you ever feel like grabbing that vodka bottle,put it down,we’ll get in the car and i will drive until the sky turns magenta i will show you how the sun rises every morning to encourage you to rise too my love i refuse to be unaware of your sufferings..  i will hold and comfort you like my mother did.
Because Your mental and emotional health is my fist priority